“Our house feels empty, Hanna,” he said. “I can’t keep pretending it doesn’t. We could still have a family.”
I stared at the brochure. “Josh, we made peace with this.”
“Maybe you did.” His voice cracked. “Please, Han. Just try one more time with me.”
Then came the part that should have warned me.
“It would help if you were home,” he added quickly. “For the process. For the home study. For them.”
“And my job?”
“We’ll manage.”
He had never begged me before.
A week later, I handed in my notice.
The day I came home for good, Joshua hugged me so tightly I thought he might never let go. We spent nights on the couch filling out forms, answering impossible questions about parenting, loss, discipline, safety, and love. Joshua moved through the process like a man racing against something I couldn’t see.
Then one evening, he found the profile.
Four-year-old twins.
Matthew and William.
In the photo, they stood shoulder to shoulder, both small and serious, with eyes too old for their faces.
“Don’t they look like they belong here?” Joshua whispered.
“They look scared,” I said.
He squeezed my hand. “Maybe we could be enough for them.”
When we met the boys, Matthew barely spoke. William stood pressed against him like a shadow.
Joshua crouched down and held out a dinosaur sticker.
“Is this your favorite?” he asked.
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