“Good. Help her. She’s fragile right now.”
I swallowed. There it was. The script. Melissa: fragile, precious, breakable. Me: sturdy, reliable, invisible.
“And I’m not?” I asked before my brain could stop my mouth.
He either didn’t hear me or pretended not to.
“We’ll talk later,” he said. “Try to be understanding.”
Then the line went dead.
I sat in the dark for a long time after, phone still pressed to my ear, the weight of it suddenly enormous. The room felt smaller, the walls closer, as if my one-bedroom apartment already knew it would be invaded.
On my dresser were reminders of the life I’d built alone: the stack of student loan statements I’d finally paid off last year, the framed photo of my small team at work celebrating a big project, the thrift-store lamp I’d refinished to match the couch I’d saved for months to buy. Every object in that room had been acquired with some mix of stress, sacrifice, and stubbornness.
And now, apparently, it was all about to become part of my sister’s soft landing.
Growing up, Melissa and I had never exactly been close. There was too much story written for us before we got the chance to write ourselves.
She was four years older, born to younger, more hopeful parents who still believed in big dreams and easy lives. By the time I came along, they were tired and practical. With Melissa, they took photos of every milestone. With me, they remembered doctor’s appointments.
I didn’t resent her beauty until I learned it had a currency my hard work didn’t.
She was the pretty one. The popular one. The one whose teachers always wrote “bright and confident” on report cards, while mine said “quiet but capable,” as if the quiet canceled out the capable.
When she turned nineteen and started dating Ryan, it was like watching the plot of a movie unfold. He was tall, charming, and worked in finance—the word “investment banker” rolled off my parents’ tongues like a spell that would protect us from ever worrying about money again.
“She’s set for life,” Mom used to say with a delighted sigh, as if Melissa had just been handed a golden ticket.
“She’ll never struggle like some people,” Dad would add, and his eyes would slide over to me, just long enough to make the point without having to say my name.
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