I stared at her, the old wound throbbing.
“I don’t hate that you were happy,” I said. “I hate that my happiness was always expected to come second to yours.”
She didn’t answer. She stormed into “her” bedroom—my bedroom—and slammed the door.
I spend that night awake, the apartment a strange mix of too quiet and too loud. My thoughts were a cacophony, looping through old memories, replaying the scene in my living room, imagining every possible attack my parents might launch next.
At some point, somewhere around 3 a.m., a new thought pushed its way through the noise.
What if I just… stopped?
Not stopped caring, exactly. But stopped playing the role they’d written for me. The responsible one. The strong one. The one who quietly swallowed more than her share and still came back for seconds if anyone else at the table was hungry.
What would happen if I stepped out of character?
The question scared me—and excited me, in a small, dangerous way.
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